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hmm every girl needs this like a spare lippy in her bag just a selection of little annoying things that bug me or sometimes make me laugh and ok in a puzzled looked why as in saying why do you do that for. feel free to comment and do some bitching in this space.

the art of conversation sadly dying a death?

So how r u? wot u up 2 2nght? Sorry i havent been hacked or anything but sadly it would seem now in today’s technology filled world we all seemed to be a slaved to this dreaded illness that is not only the text message but also the cursed social networking sites. Now being well a self proclaimed social networking ahem enjoy  i was going to use another word but i think that word would not see me or carry me in a really good light. But of late i have cut down massively on my social networking sites and habits. My reason for cutting down has been mainly due to the fact that well i dont have much to say and also i have this thing called a life that needs to be fed with good nutritious  nights out with real people and also having face to face conversations with my nearest and dearest. Right the real reason i have bailed on social networking sites was mainly because i had dinner with a mate a little while back and while i was tending to my meal and enjoying my wine. They were istragraming images of their food. Like hipsters before them they decided to take a picture of their food and long behold put it on a social networking site. now am not being bad or anything but last time i checked in you cant eat a photograph of food you can well show it off but why again do this for. I think i have found my answer people always feel the need to catalog every part of their lives now online and it is now causing well a lot of concern. Im not saying that im an angel and i post nothing on online but i use social networking sites like they are my bitch.

I do feel sometimes i do worry in how people use and share a little bit to much of themselves online and do we know when and how to stop. Now last weekend i was at a friends events and of course pictures were taken and i posed in a few and even got tweeted in one or 2 pics and yes it was fun. It was one of those caught in the moment kind of things. Now i havent even posted these online mainly because i like to have an air of mystery and privacy about me. But also free lancing as a photographer model and cosplayer i feel that sometimes i need to rein myself in and how i present myself in the online world. I think also what is annoying me of late is how people are forever messaging their friends online even when they are in the same room. FFS hey kids have some news for you here you know if you put your phone down and open your mouths sounds comes out now engage your brains to well

But sadly i am well aware that i have done this topic to death but i do have to say that there is certain advantages of well getting online to a social networking scene. Like today for example i recent met an artist thru facebook and she did an amazing picture of sheps my border collie and to say the least i will post up her work and get her out there. The added bonus of her showing me her work has now even got me a new tattoo artist to work with. Now in saying this i have promised well f and when i get work done ink wise or what not i may show certain people but than again i may keep this in hiding. Once again i like to well keep an air of mystery about me and well keep them all guessing.

But here is a creepy thing that well crops up from time to time. Why and what the fudge is this who liking option got to do with social networking hey. I was recently at an event and well i was tagged as i was in a photo with 1 close friend and long behold someone likes this pic. So am i assuming here you approve of this pic you have decided to well give your say so and say yes i do rather like this pic. Emm unless you were there at that give time than please unlike better still f**k off away from this photo all together.

But my main question is this do we need to have this digital log that we need to update day in day out. i think not. i cant think or remember the last time i posted something up. I do remember though that the last time i posted something up it was a personal post and while i stood back and remembered what i said and the memories i had behind the post a smile appeared on my face. it was one of those contented smiles that i havent had in a long time. but sadly it didnt last for 5 mins cue an idiot person commenting on the post ohh whats that all about than. It was than in a fit of anger i took the post done and deleted my account. It was rather rash and childish but hey it needed to be done. I feel sort of better for doing it. i think if i do have moments in where i want to share well personal things i will just maybe keep it under lock and key.

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Posted by on 07/17/2013 in daily rants

 

lost for words and everything in between

So it would appear of late i am yet again going thrpugh the yearly slump in where nothing is going on. After the incredible high of being in bloom in the phoenix park with my cosplayer friends im now feeling flat. Now even the sheer thought of purchasing my mumford and sons tickets next week can even pick me up. I dont know once again why this is for. I guess im just feeling lost and massively confused. I did however found out that its now exactly a year to the date that a handsome laughing chavlier popped into my life turned me upside a few times and always make me laugh with his minion impressions and always fed me good food and always had time for a joke and good smoke. But of late we haven’t well being in touch and that makes me sad. It makes me sad in a way because i enjoy the buzz of being around them and having a laugh. But sadly of late i have once again lost the interest and passion for a lot of things. Im now even a distance stranger on social networking sites and yes even i dont tweet anymore. Yeah im going through the monthly slumps to end all slumps and f**k me i hate the way it makes me feel.

I have now even become a snappy horrible person even the thought of doing certain things now makes me really upset. Like say for one example im suppose to be going air softing next weekend in a world war 2 scenario game and that does not even lift my spirits. So yeah to say the least im not exactly going through a good time once again and yes it is to say the least a complete mind f**k to say the least. But in saying this now i know better than to post up personal stuff on my blog but i do know what needs to be done and i need to well assess everything and more in my life. But like every time i do the assessing part nothing seems to change and i once again am left like feeling a rat on a wheel running around constantly.  To say the least vagab0ndage is is a vicious cycle and seriously needs to get this dealt with and soon.

But you see i kind of feel like that i am at times bending over backwards to please people that i dont even like anymore. I mean i do love the rush i get sometimes for when it comes to going out and well enjoying what i do but of late the buzz is not felt i feel slightly uncomfortable in everything i say do or even touch or even bring up and i now at times cry scream even walk out at situations like this and sadly its killing me hugely. Once again i am reminded that i have brought this subject up again but jesus christ something has really got to give and soon. The way i feel right now i could maybe roll over and give up on everything and not even care anymore. I so do not want to do this but jesus christ what other option do i have. now even writiong up on this tough issue again is making me feel uncomfortable and i think it would be high time to well asses everything and keep whats worth fighting for and throw away whats not worth having here. so wish me luck on this.

 
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Posted by on 06/17/2013 in daily rants

 

welcome to the wonderful world of routine where everything is not as it seems..

brains

 

 

Now talk about a weird title hey but when you do read this you can more than understand where im coming from on tonights piece. Now it would see in the last while i have picked up this thing called a routine. now i have to say and will be the first to admit i hate routine like i hate most responsibilities like getting things done around the house getting the bank done and also sorting out my own life it needs to be done.  Now i have to say when i first started this routine side of things for my life i hated it. I would kick and scream and bitch and moan and yes even at times cry over what needed to be done. But now that i have the routine of my every day life closely monitored and done i can feel and see things differently now.

I feel that with my new routine which i thought at first yeah this ain’t going to work for me is now like meeting an old friend and picking up where you left off. I have to say i feel calmer happier and well feel well within myself that i can mange things better and get on top of things and get them done quicker myself. But with routine sometimes only sometimes certain things can get boring and it gets to times like that in where i do think hmm should i really ddo this task today and than i think about to a life of no routine and think ohh yes i will feel better when that job is done and i can cross it off my list. I have to admit though my routine fell out of shorts of late due to home pressures and well general every day bother but now im back on track.

Im also happy to admit that now i have signed up for a full time graphic design course and also looking forward to well doing the 9 to 5 hours 5 days over 7 and also it will be good to be out with society and well it will also mean i can well make plans for the future for myself and my puppy. But what worries me though is this what if i don’t have enough time for the puppy and what if i dont have enough time to see my friends and well indulge my own hobbies and interests but thankfully now i’m working on it and not over thinking to much about stuff now. i think if anything well there is 2 thoughts here on this piece. First thought is well your thinking way to much and you need to relax and breathe and think about things carefully 1. Two well everything will fall into place and take your time. If i do come to place into my life in where i need to separate the wheat from the chaft that so be it. I mean if anything it will be a new challenge to face up to and who knows it could be only the making of me so lets hope either way i get somewhere and wish me luck with this.

 
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Posted by on 05/20/2013 in daily rants

 

its nuking time…

now for the last while i have been in a slump for ideas on a few blog piece but once again urban dictionary has saved me from this boredom and long behild here is a brief explanation into this piece.

To considering deleting “friends” from your Facebook friends list or deactivating your Facebook account entirely based on the sole perception that you aren’t really friends with these people. To start from the ground up afterwards with a new account or keep in touch only with those who survive the “nuke”

FB2

 

Now if i may be honest here i had to do the facebook nuke through no fault of my own about 6 months back and here is my reasons. Some time back i got into trouble on facebook for my views and ideas and thoughts on a lot of things and long behold one day when a person posted something up on a private group page that i was a member with i than decided to well let rip mainly my reason for the ripping was because well this person upset me and also they needed to be told a few home truths about themselves so i went forth let rip and left it at that. I left things alone and let the dust settle for a few days when i go back to log onto my account and i was blocked. Now to make a long story short i was blocked out of my account the content of my page was reported so i than said f**k it i dont have time for this and than opened up a private and new account.

It was quite simply to open the new account it was hard though taking everything back from my old account and posting it on the new page. In fact it got so hard i had to shut down and walk away before it drove me nuts. Now when i started up the new account which was only a matter of hours and a click of the mouse i got a huge warm welcome home. Ohh why the new page and why are you here now and im confused. It was than i had to explain what exactly happened and long behold i managed to get everyone back onto the account. Now i would have to say in doing this nuking accounts i can now say i can breath easily and also go about my social networking habits the best way i can. I now dont get stressed out over stupid posts well not as much as i use to and now i use facebook now as a sound cloud and my own bitch and i make it work for me. But in recent times when i have now been unblocked and in checking with my old account i have discovered that people are still adding me. Now i dont have problems with people adding me but why add me for if we have absolutely nothing in common with each other. So far i have had 3 people adding me from the old account and i think its the right time to say it here i dont really have anything in common with you.

I always try to warn people when they add me they should prepare themselves as i dont sugarcoat anything and well i add my own thoughts views pics even youtube clips on what i like. But now in saying this i do have to ask why even add me if you know your going yo get offended and report me to facebook. I think you would see from my own fb there is nothing to get offended by unless zombie killing and weaphons upset you than there is always the unfriend button i would suggest that you use it and get over yourself.

 
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Posted by on 05/16/2013 in daily rants

 

big fish swimming in a tiny pond.

brayprom

 

Now as you all know or may not know i happen to live in the little seaside town of bray co wicklow. Now people would always come up to me and say ahh bray how i love that town i remember walking along the promenade along with the parents as a child and also going to the fun fairs and having a blast on the waltzers and ahh sure the craic we would all have when we would visit so and so’s place and and we had such fond memories of this town and we should go there again.

Now all the while im hearing all this nostalgia of how my town was back in the day and its very much i would say in recent times say like like the last 20 odd so years of this nice town image that people paint. I kind of feel like saying yeah it must have been good to you know be able to reminisce about the good times that you all had there. Now fast forward 20 odd years later and sadly well my home town is dying a death. With recent events of companies shutting up shop and even now with my local and only video store getting ready for the guillotine as it were (xtra-vision video dvd stores went into receivership the other day fingers and toes crossed they don’t close down) i am well kind of feeling like yeah do i really want to stay here or what would be the best thing to do.

Now after careful consideration and a lot of careful thinking and planning i’m staying put in where i am but again im considering my options for a lot of different things. You see being in a small town it can but only bring out a ruthless and if i dare say greedy side to a lot of folks that do live here and sadly it now even shows in the every day world that is the social media show and tell theatre. Once again i will say this and to be honest with ya it will make you think ohh gee your being heartless or you may even say well fair point indeed. I find at times that the negativity and bs vibes that comes with this town is a really bad thing. Its now become so bad of late that i would not happily admit to shopping in dublin’s fair city and here is why. one there is always a chirpy smile from staff and customers alike nearly in every place you go to. Two there is more variety choice and value for money and three if you build up a friendship or even a professional relationship with the shop owners and why not you are sure to get a lot more value for money.

I think sadly with the way ireland has reacted to the economic bust people always want to run you down and say ahh here nothing good will come of this and heres a wee nugget of truth here people. I don’t earn much being a part time student but what i do earn i would happily put it into online stores and even people running a small business as long as you cater to my needs and give me a friendly smile than im all yours. But please leave all your unwanted bs shite talk at the door. yes we are going through a bad time but heres a wee thought for ya how about making your businesses work for you and make clients happy and stop complaining. As my dear old mum use to say once your above ground and breathing thats half the battle won. Now only if certain people would how do you say take this advice and maybe crack a smile and go ahead with it.

 
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Posted by on 04/30/2013 in daily rants

 

calamazoo

 

 

i could have not thought of a better word to give this following piece this name so many thanks to urban dictionary for the word and this is what calamazoo means awkward and strange. Now i have to say through no fault of my own i had a calamazoo moment there yesterday and like i always say certain names locations and situations have been changed around to protect privacy of those who may or may not be mentioned in this piece.

Now where do i start on this piece ohh yeah i will start with location it happened yesterday such a gorgeous day yesterday and i decided to take the ohh so furry and cute doggy that i have for a grand walk down along the pier and back strands of my beach and to say the least it was a great day for a walk. It was also a grand day for picture taking and sight seeing as well as i saw a few people out and about wither their kids and dogs and cameras and they of course were embracing the sunshine and we were both taking the sights in at our leisure and having fun along the way.

It was than calamazoo moment happened. I saw this tall shadow come towards me and i was i guess in another world when i heard this voice ahh hes gone into a grand guy look at the size of him wow. It was than i stopped in my tracks and i had to take a look it was my unfortunate ex that i use to date for years but we broke up well 2 years back to do complications. So while he spinned me a few lines on how grand the dog looked. I was in panic mode. Oh hi i said gee i didnt think i would see you here. So it was only 5 minutes into the conversation i had to get my head around things and think carefully in what to say.

After i got my breath the ex asked me to join him for a coffee and i said ahh sure why not what harm could it do. So me himself and the doggy went along to an outdoor coffee shop in where i had my coffee and doggy of course nicked my biscuits and than cue the chat to see what has been happening. Of course i just said yeah im now just working on becoming a designer and well going out there having fun going to nice places and even at times just you know self meeting good people and staying in contact with them and ahh yeah i have recently taken out a few projects and hobbies so have to say am happy in where im going and what im doing. So when the convo turned to him it was more or less the same thing. Ahh don’t see the lads anymore am going to the gym and ahh going to try and get into another course soon. Now i kind of took everything in with a pinch of salt it was only than when his friend turned up and joined us for coffee than things as it would seem to unravel. Without saying to much i heard a few home truths from the horses mouth and again it did make me think really your still doing the same thing and sadly it looks like you have no evolved so ahh what can i say.

After the second coffee it had come arpanet that i as a person had changed more so than him. It was like seeing an old life coming up again and i thought to myself in silence hmm people sadly will never ever change and in order for change to happen they need to accept certain things. i think in certain ways i shocked this person with the new things that i now do and i also said in a few sly digging way of my own. I truly love and take pleasure in everything that i now do and well will not make apologies for it at all. It was only than when i finished my 2nd coffee and got ready for the walk home than it came to me.

I know that and have even done a few silly mistakes and have even lost contact with a few people in my life and i have always reason to why i had to do this and i think this will go without saying unless you put in the effort to contact me and well listen to me and also make time for me than i will do the same. But if you ignore me and treat me like i don’t exist than i would see no point in staying in touch with you. But for those who i have loved and lost and even stay in touch with now i guess i should say thank you and for those of you who are not in touch with me well sorry i cut you out when i did maybe one day we will meet again.

 
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Posted by on 04/17/2013 in daily rants

 

mtv what happened man you use to be cool

 

 

its a question that i have been asking myself time and time again but it needs to be asked again whatever happened to mtv. I remember been heavily involved with mtv growing up in tne 90s listening to grunge music with the likes of sound garden smashing pumpkins and nirvana and the breeders. I also remember the days of mtv in where they had cool awesome hosts who did live presenting most days with cool presenters such as davina mccall and few others i can name. MTV also had great award shows for both film and music as well. I can also happily remember the mtv in where i discovered a lot of the music that i still listen to and even learned to sing and play a few tunes on the guitar but now for the life of me i don’t even know what happened to my beloved mtv now today.

i think it was the other night i flicked over to mtv for a few hours there was a few things i wanted to see but ohh god talk about a culture shock that i had for when it came to sitting down and watching mtv. 16 and pregnant. You know that tv show in where teenage girls who well get pregnant and than mtv decide to film their every move and put it out there. Its a show that i do have a massive dislike to.  How do i say this without sounding bad but 16 and pregnant seems to glamourise the life of being young and being a single mother and to be honest its not really a good show for well young people to see really. Another show that gets me is sweet 16 you know the one in where spoil brats get to have a massive sweet 16 f**k you birthday party it just made me gasp curse and scream when i see this show. Some uber spoiled brats and their parents have a lot to answer for and when i hear the actual requests that are given say to each party is also eye watering and shocking at times. It would sadly appear that today’s generation don’t seem to know the value of money but hey look let the parents get the spoil brats a new car that will cost so much that we may need to remortgage the house hey anything to keep daddys little princess happy.

Another how that i really dont get is the shore group i cant pic between jersery the valley or even the hills the shows now in themselves seem to be making the line for other tv stations to now make copy cat shows and decide to throw in a few beautiful people who can even show emotion due to the massive amounts of the botox masks that they were and again the drama is just made for the cameras. Now that is within in itself the most diabolical and stupid idea to ever get an airing and showing in todays world that we live in.

But hey in saying that i don’t watch mtv i have now been careful in what i watch and what i also comment on. MTV obviously now  taken note on what people do like now and with the current winners of this years brit awards 2013 with mumford and sons and ben howard winning awards it would seem mtv always hold one hour give or take in a week to hold a folking good hour of folk music. Now i do appreciate that mtv are doing this but maybe if mtv wants to keep hold of my attention i would suggest going back to the 90s format of non stop quality decent music and maybe the odd documentary that well makes sense to each and every one of us 90s kids that did enjoy the old mtv. After all without mtv i would have not discovered depeche mode kate bush sound garden but only to name a few. So come on mtv play nicely and bring back the music drop the reality shows and maybe bring on some good quality vjs that know what they are talking about. After all i would hate to pull my subscription on you guys and go forth to youtube and place all my worship there you know.

 
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Posted by on 04/13/2013 in daily rants