Ohh my god im such a horrible person. No in fact i think that im worse than horrible im cruel and evil at times. This was the thought that was running through my head this morning when i was in the bathroom doing my hair and getting ready for the day. Right i better rewind here. A few days ago i was at home and well sorting things out house wise and getting stuff ready to be shifted to different places as im in the middle of house improvements in my house. It was than i heard a blink sound and it was my fb messenger went off and i got a message from a friend of mine. Ohh saturday night here in sydney im bored and lonely and no doubt your most likely either A have plans for dinner B doing well stuff with a certain some1 or C just completely ignoring me as you always do. Now i didnt think anything of the message so i just put on my apron shifting bags and boxes about while the little furry dude was at my feet playing with his toy while i was trying to figure out what im going to keep and what will go to good will.
It was than i heard 3 pings and i was like ohh hell no i dont have time for this as im super exhausted 1 2 my back is killing me and 3 well i need to sort stuff out here. It was than after 2 hours of silence i got the meltdown. I heard a ping and immediately thought ahh great my mate is back from this travels and wants to meet up for drinks and have dinner. I was wrong. It was my friend the message content was how do you say the epic melt down and down fall of my friend. How the f**k do you do this. You know i need to talk to you and this is how you treat me and how the f**k do you get all the guys your not even special and how the f**k do you manage to pull the british chippy you know i dont like him. So as you can guess i have about 14 messages of abuse. It was than i had to take charge. I did this carefully i didnt reply to her chidlish bs i just ignored it. I than logged onto my account 24 hours later and said more along the lines of any1 who dares to annoy me via pm again will be banned from this page. Cue 4 pms of apologies and is there anything i can do for you. Now while i looked through all this and trying to keep my cool as well. I came to the thought that i was once like this. I was neurotic flipint could not make decisions and even at times screamed at people if i didnt get attention.
I have to admit i was shocked and ashamed when i saw all this and thought yeah ok i havent played nice in the past but now im on my way back to fixing things as they should be now. So i let a few days pass before i spoke to this person again and long behold within 5 mins of speaking to her she started up again. Ohh why do you think your different and why do you always hang out with that guy and why the f**k do you ignore me for? I t was than a thought came into my head. Either stand here and take this or fight back. So fight back i did. I decided to well put this person in her place. I had to tell her a few home truths and yes even at times hurt her. Do you know why i dont talk to you as much. because you flip side the conversation to everything about you and i dislike that you dont respect ahem british chippy he has a name you know and also get f**ked you scare guys even people away with your attitude and by the way f**k you and never speak to me again.
It was than when i calmed down i realised that i wasn’t been horrible or nasty or cruel or vile it was pend up rage that was all stored up and needed to be let go did my friend deserve it. Looking back she did in a way because at the end of the day act like a spoil brat with me and you will get nowhere. I do think sometimes if you have to use the brutal pain honest truth than you have to really go for it. I do admit that i may have went a bit far with the treatment of my friend but sometimes honest brutal truths do need to be heard in order for people to listen to you.