Monthly Archives: October 2012

the misguided generation




This blog piece i may step on a few toes here so apologies in advance once again if your easily offended please dont think that this is a view or insult to any1 its just my own views and well read it first before you get the firesticks aready for my bonfire.

So a little while back i managed to get a great documentry on tv and it was about young girls and who they wanted to be when they grew up and what their ambitions were at this present moment in time. I had to say i was looking forward to watching it and was also curious to see the answers and feed back that the young girls would give back. I happily remember being at that age i knew what i wanted to be.

I remember exactly at that age i wanted to be a vet and look after sick animals. Now being in school wasnt very clever but i tried my best and give it my all and it turns out i was good at languages art english studies and music. So when i told my guidence counseller when i wanted to be time and again. There was always the speech of you have to work hard and also its very hard getting a place in vets school and being a vet does not happen over not sort on and so forth. So i always took that in mind growing up and said well maybe one day my dream will come true. Sadly one day i had to give up the dream of being a vet when i found out the fees for vets school was expensive and well my parent didnt have the money for it. So i decided to go into art and graphic design. Now it was an interesting path to be took and it was also hard work and i have even decided to go back to school in order to update and refresh my skills. so its going good for now

But now as im working my behind off to achieve a somewhat tasty looking portfiolo for my course and also not to forget the amount of time and money im pouring into this course which im not complaining about i have to ask this question. Will it be worth it in the end and i always say this yes i can work for a good company get paid good money but i might not be able to get free run on the clients requested jobs that they may ask of me. but sure it will be fun in the end.

But getting straight back to my point when this documentry asked about what the girls wanted to do when they left school here was the following answers. Well i want to be famous. another girl said i want to be like kim kardashin and another girl said well i want to marry a footballer. So the question has to be asked now. What the f**k happened to this generation. so let me get this right you want to be famous look like a twat and marry a footballer. Emm ok have you not thought of outside the box. I think when i heard this i thought well this is rather said. Dont get me wrong there is nothing wrong is wanting things and wanting to do things but why pick stupid easy ways of this so called career. If i need someone to blame well i blame reality tv. Sadly with reality tv its scripted like a good soap and it sadly makes you think ohh yeah these people are happy and so on and so forth but they are not. they are shallow horrorible people who dont deserve our attention.

I think sadly with todays generation they want it all and they want it now. forget waiting and going to college for a few years they want it all served on a silver platter and want it in big portains so they can than play around with the idea screw it up a bit and than throw it out like their designer trainers and what not. If i can blame any one for this misguidence i would blame the so called twats on these shows and their air head expressions and lack of good style. I also kind of blame social media in a way the whole want like ohh love me love define me i need love and attention if i dont get it i will die. Seriously chill out and seriously wake up to life.

I think when i look back at my own goals and what i want and need they are completey different and i for one can say i have had and still have good role models always paving the way for me and more and sadly this whole reality set up of a life and marrying a footballer would not ever apply to me. i could easily run rings around a footballer a few times over and still win.

But seriously generation y you seriously do have a lot of explaining to do and soon and dont you dare back answer me with as if morons.

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Posted by on 10/25/2012 in daily rants


house proud now that has to be decided..

My idea house if and when i do win the lottery

Do you know what litterly drives me up the wall of late. House proud people, you know the types that say ohh yeah i have the perfect kitchen from ikea and my front room is also from some snooty interior designer place and well the bathroom is from B&Q and well the bedrooms are specially made for us from where ever the hippest place is of late to get your bedrooms done. Anytime i hear these names and things casually being dropped into any conversation of late. I tend to zone out. Here is my reason why. I think some house proud people i know are litterly sheer snobs who dont know better. I think this who thing of having the perfect house is insane and sadly its been and has claimed a lot of victims in the resession with huge bank loans and seriously sickening amounts of debt that people put themselves in to get the perfect home.

Now dont get my wrong i am in the middle of doing up my own house. But the flatmate has decided to foot the bill. So they have decided to start on the kitchen and when i looked at the plans i thought ok this looks good but again this better not be stressful as i cant afford the time the effort the money and also i have commitments outside this house eg college/friends/projects/and fluffy as well. But while all this work is getting done i cant help but wonder how much this will all be. Now i came to the agreement that he will take care of everything and more with the house. You see being a broke student im thinking more about the bigger picture. Im thinking more about getting a seriously sexy laptop and pimping the hell out of it with software specially for the graphic designer in me.

But now when i write this you think im all selfish im not. I agreed in or after the new year i would happily take part in the front room decorating side of things. Now my taste for different things for when it comes to the house is how do you say different to any1 elses. I know a friend of mine who lives in a well how do you say big house empty white walls. When i casually asked about why he does not put up photos on the walls his answer was ohh the nails would damage the walls. I than thought right ok how about using the no more nails things that dont make the walls and his answer was this ahh sure but they collect dust and what not. I have to admit i gave up the conversation after that as it was going no where. But a thought came to me in the back of my mind. My friend sadly has got no taste and sadly cant make a good decision to decorating.

Now i have my own taste and have even used mood boards in my own house for when it comes to decorating and i even take into account in where and how my pooch fits in with all this and more. I think if im being honest i have lived in a bare empty canvess for the last year since my mum died and i think that it would be a good time to well litterly get sum fun and personality put back in my home. May my tastes might be a little bit odd and some what crazy but again this is my house and again your are only the guest here.

Anytime i think about doing up my house i always think of mum and her nice ways of doing things up. mum always had classic prints up of movie stars from her time and even had flowers and irish art pictures up. Mum even had the fridge covered in magnets i got for her anytime i went away and she also had her little creature comforts around here and always had anything that she needed to hand. Now sadly when everything happened things got thrown away and what not and well looking back it didnt make me happy.

But after thinking about it long and hard and also saving up a bit long and hard as well i think its hightime i done my house up in my way and seriously i think this goes without question any1 who says right ok do you think that this is right can seriously go and get f**ked i live here and also shep lives here as well so respect is given to one person for when it is due.

But before i close up on this piece i will say this i do like to keep my house clean and try my best in keeping it a certain way. But i dont much appriecate people coming into to my space and picking everything apart and saying ohh yeah this looks odd or out of place. If any1 cares to ever say that to me well i can always point out well there is the door so get F**ked already.

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Posted by on 10/21/2012 in daily rants


grounds for divorce or something like that…




I just thought about writing this piece after having an idea of mine coming to me at the wee hours of the morning and also no names are going to be said in this piece to protect privacy as well.

So a little while back 2 really good friends of mine who were married for 15 years decided to call it quits. Now when i heard this news i was shocked right to the core. I thought jesus if they are calling it quits that means there is no hope for me at all so. It sadly turns out that my friends who were the picture of married happiness well sadly one day fell apart and wanted to go their seperate ways. Now they ended everything mutually you know. They divided everything equally even the pets have got joint custody of their mum and dad.

But what made me sad was when i asked them casually what happened. They just said well we just could not be together anymore. I was kind of sad when i heard this and didnt say anymore. But it does bring up the question of well do happy endings only end in fairy tales.

Now i know with my own experience of dating and having long term relationships i for one can say its not easy as it all looks. I mean when my last relationship ended. it was litterly me who had to take a stand and say look things are not working out here. Im tired of the fighting the lying and the crying and also it made me question my own beliefs and sanity as well. When i did finally break up with this person it felt like a huge relief being lifted off my shoulders. I have to admit though i was bitter and very slightly twisted. But again i can only blame myself for this happening. it was lucky for me i had my friend there who was more than good to help me thru everything and in a way she was good in saying look you need to work on yourself before going out to see any1 again.

But i think when it comes to the whole dating scene nothing really happens not at the click of a finger. As you would all agree and than again some might not agree with this relationships even take time and effort and work as well. When i asked my friend about how she met him and how everything worked out. she was like met him ina  bar and we went out a few times and than slowly but surely things feel into place and long before you know we got engaged got married and well lived in our own place. Yes there was a few things that happened along the way but we fixed things. It was just sad that we could not work out the marriage side of things and she even said i dont regret anything and sadly it wasnt meant to be.

But i think though when i heard this it made me look into my own life. Sadly because of my own experiences of bad relationships and well being treated badly in my own past. I tend to lash out to the people i care about i tend to nearly destroy my own happiness and nine times out of 10 i have even broken certain things apart because well i didnt think i was worthy enough in it all. but again im human and not perfect but i have learned from the experience massively and now im working on my issues as we speak.

but here is a thing i dont get soulmates. Now i know some people want to keep chasing their soulmates and wanting the perfect wedding the perfect marriage and the perfect happy ending but i have to say this time and again this does not exhist not in this lifestime. Maybe im being cycinal here maybe even being a smart ass but i dont thing such a thing exhist not at all. Here is why if my so called soul mate was here or maybe even in my past life would i have to put up with his lies bs and womanising ways. no i dont think so not at all.

I do think if such a soulmate exhists here is my own version of it. A sould mate is a friend who you meet up with you shoot the breeze and have a laugh with than later down the road if feelings develop than go with it. When you both feel comfortable you can step out as a couple and litterly have the good times with but they also need to handle you in the bad times and even take care of you at times of sickness and loss. no im not saying that you have to but i think that if you do care about that person you will do whatever you can to make them happy and more. but i should strongly advise that you cant rush all this. its litterly like the part of the process that is life.

But i do know now when i write this i am fortunate to have met some people that have made a good impact in my life and have even nearly lost certain people due to my stubborn ways but at the end of the day isnt life meant to be always throwing curveballs at us.

But i will leave you with this if you do happen to meet that some1 who can handle you at your best and worst make sure you keep hold of them and dont let jealous little f**kers try and take them away from you/

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Posted by on 10/20/2012 in daily rants


my own view on the dublin zombie walk

Firstly massiave apologies for writing this piece up late just have had a lot to work stuff on. So as you may or may not know i took part in this years dublin zombie walk. Whats the dublin zombie walk i hear you sll cry. Now cry moan snarl no more coz this blog piece will explain to you what it was like to take part in an awesome event and also i will try in some tips advice and maybe even a few brains so all my feel zombies in training can take part in this awesome event. so without further adue here is my own account of this awesome event.



Now here is how i first heard about the zombie walk. I heard about this awesome event via facebook from last year i had great intentions of going to last years event but sadly pulled out at the last minute but when i was told about this years event i was more than up for it, I believe that i was first told about this event via facebook and with that i joined the forums and got chatting to a few people. This also came in very handy for when it came to learning about the event. The dublin zombie walk was started up a few years back and it was a day for dressing up like a zombie and than scarying the byjaysis our of people and raising money for a good charity as well. For this years charitys it was barnardos and the irish cancer charities.

Now from my own experience i found the forums great to talk to piece via facebook this way you could get ideas on make up outfits how to walk stumble crawl and also see what else needed to be done for the day. There was also a good way of applying for certain roles. there were certain roles that needed to get filled so the roles were as following the stewards these would be the people who would keep you on the zombie path and make sure you didnt break away from the undead. The zeros those guys would have what would be simliar to an airsoft gun and weapons to make sure that everything went ok and also if the zombies behaved badly they would hunt them down but there could be a chance they would get seriously hurt by the rage infected zombie folk and lastly but certainly not least the walking undead rage virus blood spitting brain craving zombies. I myself applied for the zombie role.

meeint the awesome stewarts and baby doll from sucker punch was the highlight of my day.

The planning of the event and day within itself took a lot of good time spend on getting a look outfit and getting yourself ready. My own look which you will see in my pics that will be enclosed here tool a little while to master and get done.  The event and planning took a while but my advice to any zombie chick or dude who ever wants to take part ina  zombie walk. do your reaserch and go with an idea and than run with your own style. For example my style was red riding hood. I know you have this picture in your head ohh red riding hood so cute and innocent going to grandmas house to look after here. emmm no that wasnt the case. My story on red riding hood is this, Yes i did go to grandmas how but alas a rage virus filled zombie got a hold of me and litterly ate my face off. So for my look which i will explain in my next part constisted of sick bloody face with dark eyes and a lot of blood and anger and screaming put into the role i was playing. I would say  was to get ideas from the zombie walk be it here or abroad is to check out other zombie walks and take notes and see what you like and not like as well. If dressing up is a little out of your confort zone go for the white make up base with black eye liner for your eyes.

Now i will do a piece on my own look and give hints and tips along the way. Firstly do your product research and make sure that your ok to use certain make up brands as if you are going to be working on delicate areas such as the eyes nose ears you need to make sure you wont have allergic reactions to the make up. Also if you plan to use say liquid latax do a skin patch test 24 hours before you use the product try it on your wrist and if your ok than go with your look. i would also recommand careful planning and research your looks carefully. always take it in mind that if you want a good look for the zombie look it will take time. I jotted down notes and searched for hours online for the inperfect look and again went with my own style. I would also suggest for both your look and make up i would recommand checking out the following store out in dublin city. its called the fancy dressers and its based off south willaim street. i have to say they sell everything and both management and staff we so super helpful and were also good in advising with the make up side of things as well.

myself and my fellow zombie walker zac

I also have to say that it was also a fun day to meet colourful strange and even yet scary characters as well and it was fun to even meet people who took their own spin on classic movie characters as well. It was also a fun day for both parents and children alike as well. If anything im so looking forward to next years DZW and i also have my new outifit and look in the works as we speak.

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Posted by on 10/04/2012 in Uncategorized