Now talk about a weird title hey but when you do read this you can more than understand where im coming from on tonights piece. Now it would see in the last while i have picked up this thing called a routine. now i have to say and will be the first to admit i hate routine like i hate most responsibilities like getting things done around the house getting the bank done and also sorting out my own life it needs to be done. Now i have to say when i first started this routine side of things for my life i hated it. I would kick and scream and bitch and moan and yes even at times cry over what needed to be done. But now that i have the routine of my every day life closely monitored and done i can feel and see things differently now.
I feel that with my new routine which i thought at first yeah this ain’t going to work for me is now like meeting an old friend and picking up where you left off. I have to say i feel calmer happier and well feel well within myself that i can mange things better and get on top of things and get them done quicker myself. But with routine sometimes only sometimes certain things can get boring and it gets to times like that in where i do think hmm should i really ddo this task today and than i think about to a life of no routine and think ohh yes i will feel better when that job is done and i can cross it off my list. I have to admit though my routine fell out of shorts of late due to home pressures and well general every day bother but now im back on track.
Im also happy to admit that now i have signed up for a full time graphic design course and also looking forward to well doing the 9 to 5 hours 5 days over 7 and also it will be good to be out with society and well it will also mean i can well make plans for the future for myself and my puppy. But what worries me though is this what if i don’t have enough time for the puppy and what if i dont have enough time to see my friends and well indulge my own hobbies and interests but thankfully now i’m working on it and not over thinking to much about stuff now. i think if anything well there is 2 thoughts here on this piece. First thought is well your thinking way to much and you need to relax and breathe and think about things carefully 1. Two well everything will fall into place and take your time. If i do come to place into my life in where i need to separate the wheat from the chaft that so be it. I mean if anything it will be a new challenge to face up to and who knows it could be only the making of me so lets hope either way i get somewhere and wish me luck with this.
now for the last while i have been in a slump for ideas on a few blog piece but once again urban dictionary has saved me from this boredom and long behild here is a brief explanation into this piece.
To considering deleting “friends” from your Facebook friends list or deactivating your Facebook account entirely based on the sole perception that you aren’t really friends with these people. To start from the ground up afterwards with a new account or keep in touch only with those who survive the “nuke”
Now if i may be honest here i had to do the facebook nuke through no fault of my own about 6 months back and here is my reasons. Some time back i got into trouble on facebook for my views and ideas and thoughts on a lot of things and long behold one day when a person posted something up on a private group page that i was a member with i than decided to well let rip mainly my reason for the ripping was because well this person upset me and also they needed to be told a few home truths about themselves so i went forth let rip and left it at that. I left things alone and let the dust settle for a few days when i go back to log onto my account and i was blocked. Now to make a long story short i was blocked out of my account the content of my page was reported so i than said f**k it i dont have time for this and than opened up a private and new account.
It was quite simply to open the new account it was hard though taking everything back from my old account and posting it on the new page. In fact it got so hard i had to shut down and walk away before it drove me nuts. Now when i started up the new account which was only a matter of hours and a click of the mouse i got a huge warm welcome home. Ohh why the new page and why are you here now and im confused. It was than i had to explain what exactly happened and long behold i managed to get everyone back onto the account. Now i would have to say in doing this nuking accounts i can now say i can breath easily and also go about my social networking habits the best way i can. I now dont get stressed out over stupid posts well not as much as i use to and now i use facebook now as a sound cloud and my own bitch and i make it work for me. But in recent times when i have now been unblocked and in checking with my old account i have discovered that people are still adding me. Now i dont have problems with people adding me but why add me for if we have absolutely nothing in common with each other. So far i have had 3 people adding me from the old account and i think its the right time to say it here i dont really have anything in common with you.
I always try to warn people when they add me they should prepare themselves as i dont sugarcoat anything and well i add my own thoughts views pics even youtube clips on what i like. But now in saying this i do have to ask why even add me if you know your going yo get offended and report me to facebook. I think you would see from my own fb there is nothing to get offended by unless zombie killing and weaphons upset you than there is always the unfriend button i would suggest that you use it and get over yourself.
Following on from the wonderful and massive album that is rainbow bridge. My fellow animal rights activist and close friend Thomas Janak has now released a new album called the journey.
The journey is quite simply does exactly what is says on the album cover when i put on the cd and listened to the album for the first time i have to say i really enjoyed the soothing chilled out vibes and also with a hint of good electronica that would be reminiscent of germany’s kraft work with thomas’s own unique style of making his good blissed out beats to listen to with also very thoughtful and relaxing lyrics to listen to as well.
The opening track that opens the album is called the journey i have to say i liked what it offered with its futuristic sounds and blissed put beats which i found was also quite relaxing and ohh so calming to.
The next song that stood out for me was the song wrong. it had such a relaxing sound with soothing beats and it was also a sad song but sad is always good it was to me quite a personal song and it was one of heart break and those who may have been let down i have to say i enjoyed it a lot and thomas’s voice made it quite soothing to listening to.
The next track on the album was the superb into the city. this song for me had good uptempo beats and reminds of well going out and having a good time at discos you could maybe even create your own little disco at home with this track i have to say i really enjoyed the track a lot.
The next track that really put the album on the map for me was the sublime sacred life its just so calm and relaxing to listening to and its also reminds me of being one with nature and its also a great track to listen to while doing yoga as well which helped me while doing my yoga sessions at home.
I have to say i listen to this cd a few times over and every time i listen to it i cant help but find more ways to love this cd and with thomas janaks soothing voice and working of words with his awesome lyrics i would strongly recommend if anyone needs a cd to relax and listen to at home while working studying and wants a break away from the commercial chill out albums i would highly recommand the journey. The journey has something for everyone and i can assure you wont be disappointed
Now as you all know or may not know i happen to live in the little seaside town of bray co wicklow. Now people would always come up to me and say ahh bray how i love that town i remember walking along the promenade along with the parents as a child and also going to the fun fairs and having a blast on the waltzers and ahh sure the craic we would all have when we would visit so and so’s place and and we had such fond memories of this town and we should go there again.
Now all the while im hearing all this nostalgia of how my town was back in the day and its very much i would say in recent times say like like the last 20 odd so years of this nice town image that people paint. I kind of feel like saying yeah it must have been good to you know be able to reminisce about the good times that you all had there. Now fast forward 20 odd years later and sadly well my home town is dying a death. With recent events of companies shutting up shop and even now with my local and only video store getting ready for the guillotine as it were (xtra-vision video dvd stores went into receivership the other day fingers and toes crossed they don’t close down) i am well kind of feeling like yeah do i really want to stay here or what would be the best thing to do.
Now after careful consideration and a lot of careful thinking and planning i’m staying put in where i am but again im considering my options for a lot of different things. You see being in a small town it can but only bring out a ruthless and if i dare say greedy side to a lot of folks that do live here and sadly it now even shows in the every day world that is the social media show and tell theatre. Once again i will say this and to be honest with ya it will make you think ohh gee your being heartless or you may even say well fair point indeed. I find at times that the negativity and bs vibes that comes with this town is a really bad thing. Its now become so bad of late that i would not happily admit to shopping in dublin’s fair city and here is why. one there is always a chirpy smile from staff and customers alike nearly in every place you go to. Two there is more variety choice and value for money and three if you build up a friendship or even a professional relationship with the shop owners and why not you are sure to get a lot more value for money.
I think sadly with the way ireland has reacted to the economic bust people always want to run you down and say ahh here nothing good will come of this and heres a wee nugget of truth here people. I don’t earn much being a part time student but what i do earn i would happily put it into online stores and even people running a small business as long as you cater to my needs and give me a friendly smile than im all yours. But please leave all your unwanted bs shite talk at the door. yes we are going through a bad time but heres a wee thought for ya how about making your businesses work for you and make clients happy and stop complaining. As my dear old mum use to say once your above ground and breathing thats half the battle won. Now only if certain people would how do you say take this advice and maybe crack a smile and go ahead with it.
This is what my title of todays piece means in a few words. Leaving one’s relationship status on facebook blank. The world doesn’t need to know. Putting an end to that awkward moment when she thinks you’re “in a relationship” and you never talked about it in person.
Yep today im working with this idea and here is why. For the last while this scenrio and piece has been going around and around in my head for the last while. Ohh you know what i would love to have a relationship like noah and ally from the book and film the notebook. Now not that i have an issue with the book and film in question but i do think sometimes certain people i know are about one dvd play away from having a bit of a melt down. If you are not familier with the notebook i will post the link up here. its just main ly guy meets girl they get on great yada yada something about where he needs to leave and she has to wait for her man. While she waits for him she meets someone else and cue the handsome guy who comes back to win her heart and well i dont know what happened from there. (i should apologise in advance i just really dont like these tip of films and massive apologies for the bad description of the book) well here is a trailer explaining the film.
I have nothing against the notebook persay but i do think that at times its the kind of movie that gives you unrealistic expectations for when it comes to love. Ohh its so cute when they fight like cat and dog and ohh its so cute when it comes to their dates and courtships. But all the while while looking at this. I do think at times well some people always nines times out of ten expect romantic gestures like this all the time. I even have friends of mine fantasizing about this epic romance that happens in this film. *sighs* i wish himself would do all these romantic gestures for me. Now while i hear all this i kind of feel akward within myself. I know i should be all like ahh shucks maybe i want some of these to but when i think about it deep down i dont feel the need for romance you know. I dont know whether its because i embarrass easily or having a lack of a romantic side in me but nope not really i dont crave things like that not at all.
If i want hearts and flowers in my own way and style i would look at the likes of kevin smiths film chasing amy. You know the one in where theres a guy in the film called holden mcneil who is a comic book art that created blunt and chronic with this best friend banky. Well holden falls for this incredibly adorable girl or pile of pms alyssa jones. Now during the film we find out that alyssa has a bit of a past and is well gay. Now during the time of their courtship. They became friends first but when holden feels the need to empty his feelings out to her during a rain soaked night she flips and screams at him saying ohh this cant happen and what not. But i will tell you they do end up together and for that brief second it is quite nice. I think if there is one part of the film which i loved was when they were in bed together and holden asked alyssa why me. her cute response was well you gave me that look and i got all wet. But when she went into detail on her response it was quite i would say one of the sweetest moments ever.But when the bad things start to well interfere with holden and alyssa’s relationship smith really thought that move out and without saying too much you kind of fee thrown for both sides if i be honest I think for me that is an ideal movie to see for when you think yah i want one of those adult relationships. I think the tagline for chasing amy is sex is easy but love it hard. but it is true in what they say.
(Chasing amy)
Even sometimes from my own past i feel that well i was bit reckless in my past relationships but again i dont look upon them and think about them anymore. I hate to sound heartless but i do fee that its best to move onwards and upwards you know and if i be honest here it works out better all round for all those involved. But in saying this and writing this piece i think now im much more stronger than i was years back and i now go into everything with my eyes open wide and have great gusto and well always say look if things do end badly or if we never speak again well i will always have those memories that will make me smile and give me the warm fuzzies to keep me going during the cold winters night
Yes for today i have decided to write about one of my favpurite passions i have decided that todays piece will be about music and i will also e happy to share a few gems with you all that well i can relate to and i do kind of hope that you like it and i would also like to hear what music you guys and girls like as well.
I think well for most of my life music has always played a huge part of me in my life. When i was in primary school i was in a choir and sang well nearly every morning but it soon stopped when i left primary school and went into secondary school. My love of music didnt stop there though it really how do you say took a bit of a back seat but that didnt happen for long. I know for one when i was in secondary school i was into more the grunge scene and listened to well good music such as nirvana sound garden and primal scream. While my peers listened to well certain things that i would not call music but hey as i have always said each to their own you know and every has and always will have different opinions and choices when it comes to listening to music.
But i like to think that i did manage to dabble into all genres of music and even experienced the rave dance scenes and well danced and partied without the aid of stimulus drugs and what not in order to feel the music (dont ask me why people always say that to me) but now as i have gotten older and wiser in recent times in the vaults of older music i have found well certain pieces that i do love and enjoy. Other pieces well i would call them my guilty pleasures and would happily put them on and listen to them because they may have good memories attached to them but i have always said if i have ever went through a break up or a bad time i would flat out refuse to listen to any music that would remind me of that bad time. I have been even know to well delete the sad music or music that would remind me of bad times from my ipod even. So without further adue i will pick and choose a few beauts that well have good memories to them and again please give me feed back on this and share my your memories.
First song that reminds me of my childhood
prefab sprout cars and girls this will always reminds me of happy time spend in my childhood home in dublin and being in the huge house with my ma and da and yes even enjoying the dodgy fashion choices that we got to have as kids hee hee.
Song of the difficult teen years.
Soundgardens black hole sun was indeed the song for me and my generation it was the bad who also made me discover the smashing pumpkins as well. I think at that very time i decided to rebel against everything including my peers and no conform to this image of ohh yeah i listen to whatever people push out in order to make money. I do remember at that time that i also started dating guys and getting into well the serious side of my art work and even writing but sadly i wasn’t taken seriously by my critics which annoyed me more than ever so i decided to stuck my fingers up to them and say well f**k you so.
Song of the difficult teenage years two.
Smashing pumpkins bullet with butterfly wings. Yeah i remember listening to this song and completely relating to the lyrics one embarrassing thing that did happen though was when my teacher say that i put the lyrics up on my copy book despite all my rage i’m a rat in a cage. It was an elderly teacher that say this and thought that i had issues and i would be best off seeing the school counsellor in my school who was male and things were not made easier for me because i had a huge crush on him. I think that is where my habit of liking older men started off.
Graduation song.
Everybody wear sunscreen. Although i didnt graduate til 2002 1999 was the last year in my training course and it was a so so year. It was bitter sweet for all the right and wrong reasons. I remember getting all my folders and projects ready and i even remember writing a paper on baz luhrmann’s romeo and juilet and it was a paper that got me my first A. So again it was a good year. I think that this song well gives really good advice. I even now to this day have the lyrics on my wall and even follow the advice to this day.
Ohh you have been dumped song
Radiohead high and dry. Even though i got dumped to this song i really like. Although it was very shallow for the guy at that time to dump me to this song i would just like to say thanks to you i now know and love radiohead. FYI i was about 18 or 19 cant remember the exact age but hey buddy if you are reading kudos for introducing me to radiohead and hey listen buddy i have no bad feelings about you dumping me via a phone call.
Mums song..
After the storm
This piece will always remind me of mum and will always be a happy reminder of her and what she did for me. It was also a happy coincidence that she discovered this band through a friend of mine and his blog. So once again thank you for this and she also how do i say this said that the lead singer would make the perfect husband and father of my children sadly though he is happily married damn it why are all the good ones taken hey.
sad goodbyes.
Coldplays the scientist
i remember the day of my mums passing it was within itself unexpected and out of the blue. So i will keep this one short when she was well taken away from home this song played on the radio that night and to this day i cant ever listen to it ever. its such a personal song and the last time i did listen to it well it more or less destroyed me.
The one that helped me through the bad times.
this womans work kate bush. A certain and special someone introduced to this song. It actaully was the best song that helped me get through mums death and when i listened to it carefully i could relate to it. its quite one of the most beautiful pieces ever made and i just love it to bits.
The song that just really sums up everything that has happened in my life to this day.
Cinematic orchestra how to build a house.
This song quite simply one of the best songs even written and composed with such a feeling of content and happiness. Its a song that i can relate to and well it puts me at peace when i do get to listen to it. it also makes me feel like i have a purpose of living here and being with others in my life.
i could have not thought of a better word to give this following piece this name so many thanks to urban dictionary for the word and this is what calamazoo means awkward and strange. Now i have to say through no fault of my own i had a calamazoo moment there yesterday and like i always say certain names locations and situations have been changed around to protect privacy of those who may or may not be mentioned in this piece.
Now where do i start on this piece ohh yeah i will start with location it happened yesterday such a gorgeous day yesterday and i decided to take the ohh so furry and cute doggy that i have for a grand walk down along the pier and back strands of my beach and to say the least it was a great day for a walk. It was also a grand day for picture taking and sight seeing as well as i saw a few people out and about wither their kids and dogs and cameras and they of course were embracing the sunshine and we were both taking the sights in at our leisure and having fun along the way.
It was than calamazoo moment happened. I saw this tall shadow come towards me and i was i guess in another world when i heard this voice ahh hes gone into a grand guy look at the size of him wow. It was than i stopped in my tracks and i had to take a look it was my unfortunate ex that i use to date for years but we broke up well 2 years back to do complications. So while he spinned me a few lines on how grand the dog looked. I was in panic mode. Oh hi i said gee i didnt think i would see you here. So it was only 5 minutes into the conversation i had to get my head around things and think carefully in what to say.
After i got my breath the ex asked me to join him for a coffee and i said ahh sure why not what harm could it do. So me himself and the doggy went along to an outdoor coffee shop in where i had my coffee and doggy of course nicked my biscuits and than cue the chat to see what has been happening. Of course i just said yeah im now just working on becoming a designer and well going out there having fun going to nice places and even at times just you know self meeting good people and staying in contact with them and ahh yeah i have recently taken out a few projects and hobbies so have to say am happy in where im going and what im doing. So when the convo turned to him it was more or less the same thing. Ahh don’t see the lads anymore am going to the gym and ahh going to try and get into another course soon. Now i kind of took everything in with a pinch of salt it was only than when his friend turned up and joined us for coffee than things as it would seem to unravel. Without saying to much i heard a few home truths from the horses mouth and again it did make me think really your still doing the same thing and sadly it looks like you have no evolved so ahh what can i say.
After the second coffee it had come arpanet that i as a person had changed more so than him. It was like seeing an old life coming up again and i thought to myself in silence hmm people sadly will never ever change and in order for change to happen they need to accept certain things. i think in certain ways i shocked this person with the new things that i now do and i also said in a few sly digging way of my own. I truly love and take pleasure in everything that i now do and well will not make apologies for it at all. It was only than when i finished my 2nd coffee and got ready for the walk home than it came to me.
I know that and have even done a few silly mistakes and have even lost contact with a few people in my life and i have always reason to why i had to do this and i think this will go without saying unless you put in the effort to contact me and well listen to me and also make time for me than i will do the same. But if you ignore me and treat me like i don’t exist than i would see no point in staying in touch with you. But for those who i have loved and lost and even stay in touch with now i guess i should say thank you and for those of you who are not in touch with me well sorry i cut you out when i did maybe one day we will meet again.
